It snags, on something. A splinter, somewhere, old and still sharp, but he knows it. He never has been, isn't easy on anyone. He's a lot to deal with, all spiky irritation and a thousand words a minute; stubborn in everything and argumentative to the end, even after he's forgotten what he's arguing about.
And it might sidestep an agreement, but it is one, because, yeah, he does. Knowing none of this is what Steve usually wants, and being selfish enough to take it anyway, while saying things that get that face and that maybe someone who isn't rusty and out of practice and divorced and still bitter about the way everything can end would be able to say better, because all those things are there, make him up, like a lamp that shattered on the floor and got glued inexpertly back together but can still light when the switch is turned.
He just wants to get it right, is that so bad? And maybe minimize the likely damages while he's at it.
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Date: 2012-12-04 02:55 am (UTC)It snags, on something. A splinter, somewhere, old and still sharp, but he knows it. He never has been, isn't easy on anyone. He's a lot to deal with, all spiky irritation and a thousand words a minute; stubborn in everything and argumentative to the end, even after he's forgotten what he's arguing about.
And it might sidestep an agreement, but it is one, because, yeah, he does. Knowing none of this is what Steve usually wants, and being selfish enough to take it anyway, while saying things that get that face and that maybe someone who isn't rusty and out of practice and divorced and still bitter about the way everything can end would be able to say better, because all those things are there, make him up, like a lamp that shattered on the floor and got glued inexpertly back together but can still light when the switch is turned.
He just wants to get it right, is that so bad? And maybe minimize the likely damages while he's at it.