Lieutenant Commander Steve McGarrett ([personal profile] thebesteverseen) wrote in [personal profile] haole_cop 2015-11-10 01:33 am (UTC)



It hasn't been. Easy. None of this has been easy. Letting Danny into his world. Realizing each step of the way that he couldn't hold back everything Danny shouldn't know about him, because everything about his life kept happening while Danny was right at his side. Danny being more loyal than anyone Steve had met, after Freddie, and arrive so close on the heels of Freddie's death that the last thing Steve wanted was anyone in his boots and his head again. Ever.

Their partnership. Bumpy and competitive as hell, refusing anything but equality, even when their skills were absolutely different in every way. Their friendship, and the loyalty, and affection Danny handed out, that screwed with Steve's head, because no one did that, not the way Danny did. Until Steve didn't know how to let go of it, not want it, not rely on it. Depend on Danny in ways he couldn't depend on his own life. Family. Teammates. Head.

And....this.

The want that scorched through Steve's skin, while Danny's fingers found his hip and tightened in on him, shoving through Steve every proof that he'd never really pushed it all the way down. This want. Attraction. All those moments that weren't moment. That. Were. Moments. Moments they'd both been feeling. Shoving down, until this exploded in a stupid undercover case, and that kiss. Not the one in the bar, but the one at the door.

And. This one. This one right now, where he has to find Danny's mouth and do it all over agian.

When he's adjusted to the word love in his mouth. Throwing it around like it wasn't a more dangerous bomb, the only weapon Steve might actually be afraid of and ready to give up on entirely, after his family and his whole last year, if it wasn't for Danny. Which, yeah, he knew how fucked up that was. Yet Danny had been unwavering. Always. For all six years. Never once lied. Let him down. Made himself the one thing Steve trusted most in the world.

Could love. If he pretended that word wasn't what that word was, except out of the corner of his eye. Even if it was like saying, he could just break his bones for Danny. Try that word. For Danny. Which should make none of this happen. Because he's never needed to fuck anything so much it could fuck up the only foundation left in his world. With Doris gone, and Cath. But he can't stop. He can't back down. He can't walk away. It's not who he is, and he has never understood how anyone would or could from Danny.

Have all of this in their hands and choose anything else. Ever. Sanity isn't possible.

"Yeah," Steve breathed out, insanity in the glide of sliding against Danny again. "This does."


As for everything else. It shouldn't. God. It shouldn't have. But it was Danny. He'd throw everything on Danny. Unblinking.

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